A quote from Run Home - Alex Kaneko

i’m just waiting for someone to make such a huge impression that it would inspire a tattoo, or something equally as important of a decision to make.

i just feel like i’m drifting through life meeting and knowing all of these people, yet i have never met anyone to make such an enormous impact on my life yet. or at least, of the people who have, i’m just so used to the impact it’s faded.

and that makes me sad, that i haven’t had the chance to appreciate them in that way, and probably never will be able to until they’re gone. because that’s how those things work, i suppose.

and don’t get me wrong, it’s not like i’ve never felt inspired before, but inspiration for something like my life is different than being inspired for say, work or art. to be honest, i really don’t understand when i read about people being totally inspired or shocked into realization about something huge in their life, partially because it’s never happened to me, and partially because i just don’t believe that can truly happen. i guess this goes back to something i’ve sometimes thought about. i just don’t understand why people feel certain ways because i’ve never experienced it.

sometimes i feel like i just can’t relate to people because the way they act seems so alien to me. not understanding why they’re reacting like this or that or feeling this or that makes me feel… like there’s something wrong with me.

i guess in the end, i wonder when i’ll meet someone who will show me what inspiration feels like.

i hope this makes sense.